Updated 01 January 2022
“Still in the Stream” describes a state of low agitation that is maintained even as the turbulent flow of life surrounds us. My goal is to develop and strengthen this state as a home-base to return to and rest in as needed. Some traditions describe it as equanimity. Recently I heard Dr. Aimie Apigian call it “calm aliveness.” It is a robust inner composure that provides stability and clarity.
That is the ideal. Am I there yet? No, I can’t say that I have developed that home-base yet. I still spend a lot of time in a state of agitation and anxiety, and also a fair bit of time in a shut down depressed state. In the language of Polyvagal Theory I want to strengthen and encourage my ventral vagal responses, and reduce my hyper vigilance to threat and repeated activation of my sympathetic and dorsal vagal systems.
In this I have have made some progress but many factors are involved. These include my highly sensitive nature, my past traumas, and my deeply held defensive beliefs.
If you are on the same journey as me, if you are seeking a more resilient and robust state of equanimity in your own life, you are indeed very welcome here. My posts outline some things that have helped me, and my ongoing writing is related to my discoveries, growing understanding, and testing of various practices to aid the development of resiliency and equanimity.
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